Once upon a time
This sucks.
Everting's turning upsidedown.
What happened to the fun?
What happened to the spontaneaty?
I realised i'm still holding onto her.
Why?
I wanna let go.
It's geting so boring nowadays.
Too much time in my hands.
But that's not the problem.
Too much time and having no one to spend it with.
That's the problem.
I don't expect her to take time off.
Why should she?
It'd be good if she could.
I realised it's cos of her that things are like this.
I need to start socializing again.
Can't blame her.
She didn't ask me to do whatever i did.
She didn't expect that of me.
I need to reinvent myself.
I need to find a new best friend.
or at least a group of people whom i can use my time with.
I once thought i could handle loneliness.
But only when i'm prepared for it.
I didn't see this this coming.
Loneliness, the worse thing ever.
Worse than death.
I lost this battle.
Wounded, i need to prepare myself.
because i know it'd be attacking for quite awhile.
then after i shall hope that i will never aain battle lonliness.
It's not like i don't have friends.
but not those i spend my everydays with.
Over tiime, i realised i'm not invincible.
Even with the absence of the fear of death
doesn't mean i'm invincible.
it's hard to think u're a superman when u get crushed like this.
It's hard to think that you'll ever be superman once again.
Ever yearning.
the sun's power is superman's source of strength.
The people around me is my source of strength.
I need an oppotunity to strike back...
i'm waiting anticipating.
Yet i know i'm not fully prepared.
I still can't let go.
i don't want to let go completely.
because i don't know if i would ever regret it.
*hestitating*
i'm gonna try letting go. the only thing adhesive left is her
she's gonna have to hold this together if she wants.
if not, i'll be gone.
Maybe forever.
it was then when we thought we could last.
Once upon a time...
posted by Black Starfall @ 1:40 AM
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